-Excuse the jumping around of this post, think of it as more of a journal entry-
The past few weeks I've been really striving to work on my walk with God. In doing so I've realized how out of touch with him I was/am, and how much I need to change myself, my views, and my expectations for things.
Everything in this world, outside of Jesus, seems to point to some sort of glorifying yourself, establishing your self-worth, coveting what people have, and just sheer acts of pride. So it becomes 2nd nature for us to believe we deserve to be treated some kind of way, or in the "perfect" world be catered to in some fashion. That's why a lot of people live their entire life trying to make as much money as they can so that maybe one day they can take a break and have people work for them in some fashion.
We work towards having things in hopes that it will bring us what we all ultimately want, peace in our mind, body, and spirit. The most amazing thing to me about everyone seeking some sort of peace, is the fact that most people are seeking creations to bring them peace instead of the creator. I'm as guilty as anyone of this and I repent of it constantly. The fact that we can become so consumed and amazed by something man-made; i.e. video games, cars, money, people, celebrities; instead of the one who created every teenie tiny detail of you me and the rest of this world and what inhabits it, is absolutely ridiculous the more I think about. How can we covet the fruit of the creator, but not the creator himself? It's simply absured.
But it does make sense, in the fact every single person on this earth is a worshipper by nature. If we aren't worshipping God then what we deem as important at the moment becomes our God of the moment. We were created to worship God, it's our only purpose in life. Life is simple, we have complicated it. We have all these urges that we feel the need to meet instead of the ones telling us to serve God, worship God, etc. The more you seek God and get into the word, the more you see how irrelevant most of things we chase are. It's the most convicting feeling I have everyday. I feel that if I'm not reading my Bible, praising and worshipping God, or genuinely helping someone out; that I'm in error in my walk with Jesus. This has began to provoke a life change for me. I've realized how selfish and prideful I truly I am. God himself; the true king, ruler, and saviour of this fallen world; came to this earth as meer servant. The king came to serve and save people, and then sacrificed his life for us. Like truly try to grasp that. Here's a bad example but imagine your favorite celebrity coming to you and saying, "hey I'd like to be your servant, and if you run into any trouble, especially trouble worthy of the death penalty, I'll take your place on the execution table." That alone seems uncomprehensible, yet God in the flesh did just that for us! So how can we say we deserve anything but death when our own saviour died for us? We can't. It's by his grace and mercy that he loves us, and we should be content with that alone. We owe it to him to praise him, to worship, and to exalt him. I just pray that we let him lead or lives and be the center of our lives. That we let his spirit feel us up, and guide our lives because without him we are nothing but a spiritual criminal...
